Last Sunday was Father's Day. This is the 2nd Father's Day without my dad. As I thought about my relationship with him, I realized just how much of my life was spent hiding my youthful transgressions to curry praise from him. That in turn prevented me from experiencing the unconditional love he offered and expressed at those times I could not hide the error of my ways. I wonder just how much I missed by hiding mistakes and struggles with my dad.
As I learn more about God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit, I am seeing a God who knows me better than my dad (continual sin and all) and loves me whether I share (repent) those transgressions, mistakes, or struggles with Him. While my "hiding" prevented my dad from having more opportunities to share grace/love/discipline with me. My hiding, not sharing, not repenting, doesn't prevent God showing His grace/love/discipline for me, it prevents me from seeing it and in turn Praising Him for it. As I continue to prepare for seminary this fall, I plan to bring all my concerns to Him and watch in wonder as He meets every need, forgives every sin, and graciously calls me into account. Free to hide no more!
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